A Season

It seems to be a season of losses. This too will pass. My aunt past away on Christmas day and we had a grave-side service for here last Friday. I was reminded of the good times we had with her sister and my sister. It was a good time with cousins, siblings, and the older folks that I hadn't seen in years who where Aunt Betty's friends! I went to a visitation with my husband-to-be the week before and now another one tonight. A dear friend lost her aunt too. Death will never end and life does seem to carry on. We have to go on, carry on about our lives, and remember the to cherish the times with the loved ones who have gone on. This reminds me of a calling on my life. I am to be an evangelist, to disciple, encourage, and much more. I shall go on with my calling!

Blog Give Away

I have been browsing other blogs with a dear friend. I came up this one that has lovely boxes. Oh how I would love these beauties.

For Better or Worse

I can say to you for the first time in my life, I am INN-LOVE! To respond to my previous post, this relationship is to stay, until death due us part! Yes my dear friends and family, I am getting married.

It is so different than any other relationship I have ever been in. I don't feel like I have to explain, make excuses "why?", just introduce him. His name is Michael Dean Backeberg. I will get his name correct by the time it is my last name! He is a 40 year old farmer and mechanic. He is a child of the living God above all!

We have choosen July 10 at noon to be the time we are united as one. As I see a couple that I am very close to go through the aging process, I look at Michael and see many years of youth in both of us. One day, we too, will be aging and wondering how much longer can we go on. I know that I want to walk hand in hand with Michael into eternity. I have no questions, no doubts, a few fears, and a lot of love is in the air!

Oh, he treats me like a queen. I love him so much, there are times I just want to squeeze him sososososo hard and never let go! He has an adorable smile and giggle. He loves to pick on me and sometimes, it is too much! Now how about this, he told me to pick out a new toilet for our home. I thought that was sweet. I told him that we couldn't have a low sqatter! He just looked at me and laughed really hard!

I am the happiest I have been since I said yes to Jesus Christ being my Lord and Savior! Nothing will top that, I don't think! We are in the planning stages and I am working in Madison three days a week, driving an hour or so one way, full-time online student, and all the other things going on in my life.

I am blessed to be right where I am at. I am loved, cared for, cherished, taken care of, adored, and I was fearfully and wonderfully made in my mother's womb. I have been given this verse as a reminder of God's promises to me. I was not to worry about a husband, Daddy already had him picked out for me.

In five months, Michael and I will be saying our vows and I am blessed to be the future wife of Michael. His dad was singing today, "Here comes the bride!" I cryed!

Relationships Come and Relationships Go

There has been a certain individual who has had an eye for me for two years. We would talk whenever we saw each other. I would pray for him often. I was always so glad to run into him in the grocery store or Culvers. As some of you know, I was engaged last year and then it came to an end the day after my sister's wedding. I am grateful that God does answer prayers and all things are in His timing. You see, I prayed that if this man that I was engaged to was not the right man for me, then God please end it! He did. Thank you Daddy!

I had run into this other certain individual during the time I was engaged and he just looked and got teary-eyed and put his head down. I thought, "Odd response, but okay." I suspected he liked me as he would ask my boss questions about me and others where I worked at the time-Pizza Ranch.

Several months back, I ran into this cute, farmboy again. He was glaring at my left hand and then began asking questions. I hadn't seen him in a few months and I was in and am in continual prayer for him. You see, I kinda liked him too. For whatever reason, I did and yes, I do like him beyond liking! He was so happy I didn't get married. He put his groceries down, kinda did a nervous dance, giggled beyond giggles, and then he said, "So you didn't get married huh? Do you want to go out tomorrow night? Culvers?" I stood there and had such joy in my heart that someone was so taken by me that is actually a good man and a hard worker. I was amazed.

I ask that each of you who read my blog, please pray for Michael and me. He gave his heart to the Lord and I am seeing changes in him that are exciting. For the first time in my life, it does not seem like "Too good to be true". I believe this relationship is here to stay!

Blessings!

Is Thanksgiving Over

I think about certain holidays and how when they are over, sometimes they do seem to be over. Thanksgiving and Christmas are two of my favorite. To me, they are never over. I need to continue in a sprit of thanksgiving and praise as I am blessed with so much and there are days all I do is wonder what do I really have. MY BAD!!! Those are the times in which I get reminded of a home, food, friends, but above all, a Savior - Jesus Christ who came to us to save us from ourselves. Wow, what a concept! Jesus, you can have all of me, pour me out, and fill this shell with You - please!

Today I am home from work with severe headache and body aches. I am reminded that I have a bed to sleep in, water to hydrate myself, and other plumbing facilities. Thank you Jesus! No matter how bad I am or it seems, there are millions around the world who have it much worse than me. I am not to be a martor and poor me, but to be one full of praise and thanksgiving for all I have, not to focus on the perfect family that I don't have. God has me right where He wants me, in the center of His grace and provision! Happy Thanksgiving, Everyday Dear Friends!!!

Christmas is here, in spirit, today, and next comes the decorations! This will be fun! Blessings!

God Uses Many Things to Speak to the Depths

Today I went on a day trip to Waupaca. I cannot say enough about how this trip has impacted me in so many positive and reflective ways. God used a friend to get me there and I am blessed by the turnout. I have had artwork speak to me, but nothing like what I saw today. It was as if the women in the pictures spoke to the depths of my heart. There was one of a Mom and her little girl. It reach in to where only God has stired me. It was as if He took me there to talk to me again. I love art so much and I used to draw and paint. I haven't done either for so long. I doodle here and there, but nothing like I used to. On the way home, I became aware of some things that I need to deal with in God's timing and not mine. He knows when I can handle them and when I can't.

I was taken out of the whole that I know and shown a place that exist and is reachable. It is this side of Heaven. I am amazed how the shops brought me to a place of peace and enjoyment that I have not experienced for what seems like a long time. Each one was refreshing and unque. I was reminded of talents God has put in me ad I don't necessarily use. I was taken to a place where God spoke to me and showed me His love for me. I was not thinking about what needs to be done when I get home. I was in the moment and that is so rare for me.

I am so thankful for have been shown these places and to go again, I will! There is artwork waiting and food to be discovered. There are corners to be visited and people and places to see. I am thankful for this day!

Why Am I Not in Bed?

It is 11:43 p.m. and I should be in bed, but so much on my mind and burdened for the lost! I know I need to get up at 5:30 a.m. to spend time with Daddy. Why am I not in bed?

I stop and think of the ways that I can reach the lost souls in this city of Reedsburg and this city of Madison! I am a home-missionary and God has me here for a reason, a season, and I am full of His joy! I am so blessed to be able to live in Reedsburg, visit and work in Madison, and then while I travel, spend time with Daddy!

I haven't blogged for several months and am wondering if I should just quit it. I don't think so. I have people to reach for Jesus and this may be only one avenue. I am thinking about Face Book. Unbelievable! I just have hesitations and everybody has face book and I hear, "You got to get on!" No, no I don't but I might!

Okay, good nite world and Jesus does love you so much! I do too!