Is Thanksgiving Over

I think about certain holidays and how when they are over, sometimes they do seem to be over. Thanksgiving and Christmas are two of my favorite. To me, they are never over. I need to continue in a sprit of thanksgiving and praise as I am blessed with so much and there are days all I do is wonder what do I really have. MY BAD!!! Those are the times in which I get reminded of a home, food, friends, but above all, a Savior - Jesus Christ who came to us to save us from ourselves. Wow, what a concept! Jesus, you can have all of me, pour me out, and fill this shell with You - please!

Today I am home from work with severe headache and body aches. I am reminded that I have a bed to sleep in, water to hydrate myself, and other plumbing facilities. Thank you Jesus! No matter how bad I am or it seems, there are millions around the world who have it much worse than me. I am not to be a martor and poor me, but to be one full of praise and thanksgiving for all I have, not to focus on the perfect family that I don't have. God has me right where He wants me, in the center of His grace and provision! Happy Thanksgiving, Everyday Dear Friends!!!

Christmas is here, in spirit, today, and next comes the decorations! This will be fun! Blessings!

God Uses Many Things to Speak to the Depths

Today I went on a day trip to Waupaca. I cannot say enough about how this trip has impacted me in so many positive and reflective ways. God used a friend to get me there and I am blessed by the turnout. I have had artwork speak to me, but nothing like what I saw today. It was as if the women in the pictures spoke to the depths of my heart. There was one of a Mom and her little girl. It reach in to where only God has stired me. It was as if He took me there to talk to me again. I love art so much and I used to draw and paint. I haven't done either for so long. I doodle here and there, but nothing like I used to. On the way home, I became aware of some things that I need to deal with in God's timing and not mine. He knows when I can handle them and when I can't.

I was taken out of the whole that I know and shown a place that exist and is reachable. It is this side of Heaven. I am amazed how the shops brought me to a place of peace and enjoyment that I have not experienced for what seems like a long time. Each one was refreshing and unque. I was reminded of talents God has put in me ad I don't necessarily use. I was taken to a place where God spoke to me and showed me His love for me. I was not thinking about what needs to be done when I get home. I was in the moment and that is so rare for me.

I am so thankful for have been shown these places and to go again, I will! There is artwork waiting and food to be discovered. There are corners to be visited and people and places to see. I am thankful for this day!

Why Am I Not in Bed?

It is 11:43 p.m. and I should be in bed, but so much on my mind and burdened for the lost! I know I need to get up at 5:30 a.m. to spend time with Daddy. Why am I not in bed?

I stop and think of the ways that I can reach the lost souls in this city of Reedsburg and this city of Madison! I am a home-missionary and God has me here for a reason, a season, and I am full of His joy! I am so blessed to be able to live in Reedsburg, visit and work in Madison, and then while I travel, spend time with Daddy!

I haven't blogged for several months and am wondering if I should just quit it. I don't think so. I have people to reach for Jesus and this may be only one avenue. I am thinking about Face Book. Unbelievable! I just have hesitations and everybody has face book and I hear, "You got to get on!" No, no I don't but I might!

Okay, good nite world and Jesus does love you so much! I do too!

I Am Thankful For...

...the redemption of the Cross.
...the forgiveness granted to me, an underserving.
...the job I have with Vector Sales & Marketing.
...the job I hope to get with Orbitec.
...the apartment I am making my home.
...the space I am given with this home.
...the dwelling in which I occupy is only a dwelling, not my real home.
...the person who has been with me through it all.
...the love I know that is within me to love you.
...the joy that is within me and bubbles out of me.

I am thankful that I am right where I am. It is causing me to perserve in the Lord. I am finding things out about me that I never knew about myself. I really am happy single, but do desire a husband and babies. God is my husband forever! I can't beat that! I am thankful for right where I am at!

I just looked out of my window and there was a baby. She couldn't be but only a year. She was playing with a ball in the parking lot. That ball is more than half her size. I am thankful for moments like this, when the Mom cames to her baby and claps for her, good job walking, getting the ball, and not running away or wondering off. Yes, I am thankful for right where I am at!

Blessings dear friends!

We All Need to be Heard and Encouraged!

I am in a place that I have been told is "desirable". Well, yes, this place is drawing me closer The Husband that will never leave me nor forsake me. I am loved with the deepest love that only This Husband will provide. I am shown everyday just how much He loves me. Yes, my Husband is Jesus Christ!

I withdrawn at times because when I share, I want to be heard, not lectured or preached at. I need prayed for and prayed over. I also desire realness. I know everything is spiritual, but we need to bring a balance into the practical! I am hurting and don't want religion shoved down my throat. I have the best support system and such awesome friends! I rejoice and am so thankful for what I have. I praise God that He is dancing over me now! I am not trash, but I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I was formed in my mother's womb. That one gets me a lot as my mom was not a Mother to me for most of my life. I praise God for her and that she was used by God to bring me into this life. I pray for her healing and ask you to as well! She is in a nursing home and not well in the mind at all!!!!!!!

God is bigger than the rent due, utilities due, phone bill due, monthly payments that people wanted payed last year, etc. God is a big God because He is caring for you, me, and all of our brothers and sisters. God is a big God because He loves us so much!

This is the real side of me. I cannot hide under a rock and pretend that all is well. God will provide and I am hurting! God loves you and me and our brothers and sisters in His family! Yes, I know all these things. Here is the deal, I thank you for reading, praying, and loving God so much that you will pray for me and our brothers and sisters. Also, that you love God so much that you will pray for the lost souls and share Jesus with them. It is not about religion. It is about relationship. How are your relationships doing?

Yes, please respond and I will pray for you and all that you ask me to! God is a loving-God and I do trust Him! I love you and am praying for your relationships!

Update

Peggy does have pnenonamonia. She said she felt better and needs prayers for strength. Please keep praying!

Jack is in bed. Cough has been better and productive. He is tired and just crabby! I would be to if I was in his shoes! I ask you to keep lifting him up in your prayers!

I had a talk with Timothy. It was just hard. I ask you to pray for repentance and brokeness for the glory of God! He is a hard man and prideful! It is hard to see someone like this! I have given him to God! He is not my project or mine at all!

Blessings dear ones! I am not a victim, but a child of God redeemed by grace and the shed blood of Jesus Christ!

Prayer Is Needed!

I am asking all to pray for my friend Peggy Sharp! She is being admitted to the hospital as she began coughing up blood today! I am not sure what is wrong as of now. She called and asked that I would pass it on. Please pray!

I am here with Jack and he is sick, coughing, and exhausted! I have been encouraging him to rest. The head of the bed is up and he stopped coughing for now. He looks terrible and says he feels it! His cough is better, but please pray for him too!

I also ask for pray for Lynda! She is a might woman of God and only human! She is exhausted and in need of strength and endurance for the race she is running! My heart is broken for her and Jack! I am praying and helping as I am able! Please pray!

God is our refuge and strength! I am leaning on Him to help us all thru! Blessings!

New Direction

I am going forward and not with Tim as my husband-to-be. He ended it today. I am asking for all to pray for healing and that he is blessed and healed, in Jesus Name! I am pressing in to finish school as of 12 a.m. Wednesday. I didn't expect I would get this sort of news from a friend. Then news that a friend of our family passed away the day of my sister's wedding. My sister was a care provider for this friend through home health!

I am asking for provision as now I have an appartment and all expenses to pay on my own. I know that God has a plan and I trust Him to provide!

Blessings!

Please Pray--Lord I Need You Always!

Hello to my dear blogger friends, readers, etc. I am asking for prayer for my up-coming marriage. I am asking for prayer for my future husband and myself. I know I can't change him, nor do I intend to. I do, however, expect that if I am promised something, that the promise is kept. There are so many things with both of us. I am first to admit that I am far from perfect!

I am letting him go and giving him to Daddy as I know that is the only way for God to work is me getting out of the way. I do trust God with my huband! We have two and a half months left. We both need to loose wt. and be happy and positive. He lives in a very hard situation. I ask for you to please pray for God's will and that His will be done and walked out by both of us. Tim wants to take a third-shift job although, first and second are available. Just some of the things I am sharing that need prayer! In the midst, I draw close to God and He is close to me! This I am certain of!

Blessings!

Encouragement For You & Me

"Encourage and Strengthen Him." Dueteronomy 3:28 This is what was one of my focuses this evening as I read this devotional. It is part two of "Be a 'builder-upper!'" God knew Joshua needed all the help he could get when lead the Israelites. He sent his mentor, Moses, to encourage and strengthen him!

God knows we each need help and He has put people in our lives to encourage and strengthen us! I am an encourager by nature. Lately, probably not so much to some and especially myself! I find there are some that it is easy to encourage and others, no matter what is said, well, bah humbug! I don't want to be in this intrapment of negativity!

Lately, I have been in the pit of uke and have been sorta kinda ignoring what God wanted to show me! I didn't realize that I was ignoring Him until about two days ago when I had a rude awaking! I realized that God was speaking into the depts of my inner most being! I sure needed to be encouraged at that moment and Daddy did!

Then, this eveing I ran across this devotional on encouragement. It states, "Everybody needs encouragement, including you! You need others to cheer you on when you've been battered by setbacks and circumstances. Correction does much, but encouragement does much more. It rekindles your spirit and gives you the oomph to keep going. Nothing can uplift more than the encouragement of a friend or loved one. It's the oxygen of the soul. Having run two miles, a person may need to pause and catch his or her breath before running another two. Before facing a formidable task, or even the wearying routines of life, a person needs to pause for encouragement before tackling the work ahead. So become oxygen to the souls of those around you. Strengthen them to persevere for the Kingdom. Encourage them with God's promise to work good in all things. Stop and think about somebody who could use a little encouragement, and before today is over, make it a point to get in touch with them."

"Let us pursue the things...by which one may edify (build up) another." Romans 14:19

I know a lot of people who need encouraged each step they take! I want to encourage you as you read this! You,_________, are loved and held up in His love and care today! You,___________, are not ever alone! You,_________, are watched over and sang over! You, __________, are in my prayers! I want to encourage you, I love and pray for you!

Until then, be blessed by God's best!!!

I Don't Believe in Good-Byes

After much prayer and thought and talks and tugging-of-hearts, I have decided to move on and leave the Baldwin Household. This has got to be, if not the hardest, the next thing to the hardest thing I have done. I am so pulled in many different directions and feel horrible for moving-on! I am so torn over leaving Jack and Lynda, I feel sick and have a nasty of nasty headaches!!!

I deal with guilt and I know that this is not because of Lynda's words!!! There comes a time when we have to go on with our lives! I knew this time would come, but I didn't know it would be like this!

I am so blessed by Jack and Lynda! It is in the small things and in the big things! I am not sure where I will work, where I will live, but God is bigger than it all!!!

I got used to having internet and being able to submit homework at 12 a.m. and then get up at 6 a.m with crusty eyes! I loved the baths, hot water, laundary facilities, home-cooked Lyndee meals, her prayers at all hours of day and night. Lynda has been more of a mom to me than my own. True she didn't bring me into the world, but, in the three years that I have known her, she has spoken into my life more than my own mom. I have more support here than anywhere else. I cannot say "Thank You" enough to this woman that God has in my life!

I will never say "Good Bye" to Jack and Lynda, but it sure feel like a part of me is dying! May sound dumb, but I am so torn up!

I am such a sofety sometimes and sentimental and mushy! I pray blessings on Jack and Lynda, in the Name of Jesus Christ! I repect them and love them beyond words and any actions that I could do to try to show them! I have a special place in my heart for this couple, like I have never had for anyone else!

Lynda, thank you for all you have done, all you are doing, and all that you continue to do! I am now an avid reader! I have read two, almost three books, within a month! Unheard of for those who have known me for any length of time!

I am not sure, but it may be a spell before I am able to Blog again!

Blessings!!!

An Oppurtunity

I lost my source of income today and at first it was like a hit in the gutt! Then, I remembered back when I was actually fired from the hospital I was working at! I wasn't fired this time. The money ran out for the work study program!

I am looking at this as an oppurtunity and not a let-down! I started looking for work for the summer last week. Funny how things work out for God's glory. After tour hours of phone calls, I ended up with what is not available. That means what is available is ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am excited to see what God has in store for the future! I am off this weekend to spend time with a friend a couple hours away! We have a wonderful time and the time just seems to run away from us! Maybe bowling and some hockey! Yeehaw!!!

A Big WELCOME to Jamie and Jessie as they are visiting us here in the freezer zone from Nashville!!! I am excited to them Sunday! Yah! I am excited for their Mom, especially and of course, Dad too!!!!

Happy Valentines Day!

I want to say to all that I hope today is the beginning of many new friendships and blessed relationships repaired! I pray blessings on all you who I know and those I don't yet know!

Do you ever feel like you are being talked about, gossiped about, and/or just the only topic on people's conversation list? Why is that? Guilty complex? Worry and self-doubt? Or is it the truth? Are you being talked about and prayed for and at the top of discussion for people?

I think we all feel this way from time to time! I pray you are well-talked about and built up, not tore down and misunderstood! I pray that when you are thought of and spoken of, that it is with gentleness and compassion, not slander and misunderstanding!

Blessings on this day of love, love, and more love!!!

Keep Pluggin' Away!

I am looking forward to spring and summer! I have never felt the smallness of winter until this winter! I have always enjoyed being inside during winter and just snuggling down at night and even during the day, I would take a nap! Now, I am on the go seemingly all the time!

School is going well! Lots of homework and another to start at the end of February and it is a two-weekender! Then another class starts right after that one ends! I will need to get another job for the summer. I pray that the job at the library doesn't end before the semester does! I have it good at this work-study job! I get paid to organize books, help students with whatever they need, and my own homework or projects I bring in! As long as I am open and am at work, things are good! I like to help other students with their homework and seeing them smile. Recently, I have had this one student who likes to pick a fight and I was ready! I didn't do anything I shouldn't have!The funny part was when the custodian came in and began praising me in front of the student. He followed her out into the lobby and proceeded to tell her that the whole thing about me keeping him in line with the posted rules was gender-bias! Okay!

I am plugging away with life, school, relationships, and relationship with Jesus Christ! I know that God has a plan for my life and He is faithful! I am blessed!

Reflection Of What I Am Grateful For!!!

I have been focusing on God as I am going through the hard stuff! I know that as my focus stays on Him, I can go through anything! He is faithful to me and never leaves me nor forsakes me! I have had my focus on other objects that have lead me to believe oppisite of what God promises! I am repentant today and know that I need spiritual fasting, such as, no things that give me true, but false pleasure, if you will!

I left church a changed woman today! I had my focus on God and His will that I know He has called me to! I am joyful in a quiet manner, but do have joy in my heart! I am grateful, through it all, for Pam staying here! She is a woman in need of love and support, like myself! She needs acceptance, like myself! Pam is a support and part of the body of Christ! We are called to be there for one another, no matter how comfortable or uncomfortable it may be for us!

What would you do if your friend had to leave like yesterday and had no place to go! I have my defense up so often as I am on protective-mode! I am laying it down and know God is my protector and lover! I need no man or woman to survive, just love and affection! People in the body of Christ are am encouragement for life!

I am grateful today for the situation I am in! I love each of you very much and pray blessings on each of you!

Now, off to work-out! Yes!! Finally, first time in over a week! Isn't life great?!?!?

How Many?

I wonder how many more will I meet and then, there he is!!! Michael hasn't contacted me for two weeks and not responded to my numerous messages. I am so good with it all! I know that God has the right one out there and I do trust Him for him! I will be meeting another fella next Saturday. He is from Burnsville, MN. Hey Jamie, your former neck of the woods!!! He will drive here and then we will spend some time together and then I think he will go back home in the evening. We have been talking a lot on the phone, texting, emailing, and prayers for one another. It is so different than with Michael and the other fellas I have met. I want friendship first and then, see what happens. This is with any person that has expressed an interest in me.

I think Lynda is frustrated with the whole internet thing. I really wish there was a better way to meet people, but I go to a small church and no one there is what I would concider, well, you know!!!

I am taking one day at a time and letting God lead the dance! I know that I am where I am supposed to be for a season. How long of a season, God will show and direct my path! I want His will, not mine. I am corrupt and need Daddy!!!

School is a lot of work, but I am enjoying the homework, working in the campus library, and then home evenings, 6 or 7 and watch some t.v. with Lynda. I am amazed at all the homework for accounting! Wow, a lot of it is not assigned but the instructor said, "I hope and trust you will do the work not assigned." I will work on this as my assigned homework is completed. I have until Tuesday at 8:30 a.m. to complete it.

Blessings and have a blessed Sunday! I am looking forward to sweet fellowship and communion with Father!

What Is God Preparing You and Me For?

Church was awe-inspiring today! I was filled with encouragement and hope during worship and then again at the end of the service! I have been wondering what God is preparing me for? Not just going to school and the normal day to day activities, but really what is God doing in me and for what purpose of His? Then as I was listening to Pastor Clark speak, it was like God yelled in my ear! I jumped and was filled with such peace and contentment! God is in control of my life because I give it to Him. I don't want to be outside of His will the least bit! It was at that moment when Pastor Clark was referring to David and how he must have prayed for his sheep he tended. Think on this: David prayed asking God to protect his sheep from bears, lions, tigers, etc. God didn't always do so. Why not? If God always spared David from fighting such animals, how would David be trained well enough to fight Galiath? Good question!!! Step furter: David was trained to fight Galiath to prepare him for the next step, which was what? Yes, to be a king of a nation! If God hadn't taken David through each process of training and tough love, if you will, how would David have been able to be king if he couldn't fight the giant if he couldn't fight a bear, lion, or wolf or his own fear?

I began to think of the things in my life I find difficult to bear and go through! There are things that have seemed simple to begin with and then as I pressed in and really experienced all the different aspects of things, I see that there are challenges in everything which seemed sweet to begin with! I am so in awe of God and how He puts things together and people together to help each other out and through! I am reminded of the scripture, "He works all things together for good according to His purpose!" I am grateful for this cripture for many reasons!!!

What is God preparing me for? I have a better understanding of some of the things He has called me to do! It is not just living here in a small home with three other bodies and the fourth one comes in on occation (two people and two dogs)! It is not just to go to school to get a better job and pay off debt and make a better income. It is not just, just, just. It is all of the above and much much more! I am excited as I am getting closer to Daddy and Jesus! The Holy Spirit does work through things and convict! I am also reminded of the scripture: "There is now therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus!" I am holding this close to my heart tonight! I have felt so condemned and not understood why! Well, it is not Jesus condemning me! I now know that!

Blessing as you search God and find what He is preparing you for!!!

God is Here, Right Here!!!

I am so encouraged at a time when the world is spinning, wondering what is happening to the economy! I know that God is here right in the midst of it! He has a plan for our church. He has a plan for your future. God has a plan for me and all my days are numbered according to His perfect will! Here I am Lord!!!

I think of a blog I recently read talking about dancing! As I read it, I was reminded of my prayer to Jesus as I go through the hard times and easy times. I ask Him to "please lead this dance Jesus! I don't know the steps ore how to dance without your lead!" It is awesome when sisters and brothers in Christ are on the same page. When we have issues that are a like, we can learn from one another and pray with and for one another! I pray for you tonight, as I am going to turn in early, for me ten is early! My prayer is that as you go forward with whatever it is you seek to find and accomplish, that Jesus is in the middle of the planning and not just a mere thought! I pray you ask Him into it and not come along side it!

The night before this semester started, I asked a dear friend to pray with and for me! I was not doing so well that night, but in the midst of the tears and termoil, God showed me that it all is not so bad! School is for learning and getting a career! God is for life! As I think on these two statements, I am in awe of how personal God really is! He knows each hair on my head and your's too! He knows when we will die and go dance with Jesus! He knows how much money we should be allowed to have and not to have! This is for each person, not just a few! God Is A BIG God!!!!

I also wanted to share something that has never happened to me in my life of going to school and college. I made it on the honor role once in high school and once in jr. high. That was all! Yesterday, I received several mailings from my college I am currently attending. In the thinnest envelope contained a letter from the president of the college. I thought cool-I looked at the ending first and not the beginning as I like to know who has sent me mail!!! I was so excited to learn that for the first time in my life, I made the Dean's List!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOWWWHHHHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! I was so excited I called Lynda and she well she was excited, I know she was!!!:):):)

Blessngs as you go forward!

Short and Need You!!!

The past two days I have been down! Today and tonight, I feel like I am in a pit! I am crying out to God, literally! I am not sure why I am so down, but that satan wants me there! I am asking for your prayers for each day this week, please pray for me! I am so desperate for God, so in need of Him and His touch! Blessings!!!

Prayer Request for Michael!

I am asking those that I know who would pray to please pray for Michael. He is in the midst of a decision whether to remain here in the states or go to Holland or London where he has his masters already. He is in need of being open to God leading him and not asking God to join him! I ask you for prayer in this manner and however else you may be lead to pray for him!

We talked for a while today and I am in a place of what God wants is what I want! I desire to hate all He hates and to love all He loves!!! I don't want to be out of His will for anyone or anything! I have a renewed sense of God's love for me! I have struggled with this for many years. I know many people struggle with acceptance and the need to be loved, but not really having the need met! I now know that there is only One who can give this kind of love all the time whenever needed! Jesus Christ is one who will never leave us nor will He foresake us! Thank you Jesus!!! My identity can no longer be in the approval of others nor can I expect people to validate me! This is so hard for me! Where am I going, not sure! Just sharing what God is showing me in His all powerful love!!!!

God bless you and may His face shine upon you as you draw close to Him!!! Blessings!!

School Starts Monday!!!

Haven't talked to Michael in a week. We have texted a couple times and emailed. He is concentrating on college and career! It is good to see this in a man! I have been with too many that I was just dumb!!!!! I keep thinking that singleness is the best way! Then, I really want to be loved by that man that is just for me! Enough on that!

I am feeling the pressures of life and wonder how long things will continue as they are? I start school again on Monday. Working 14 hours and taking 12 credits. I wonder if the excitement will come again as I have always loved learning and looked forward to college! This semester, I just feel like I am going to craiter before I am even stated! Life at home is full of adventure! I feel like I am more of a bother to Jack and Lynda and that no matter what I do, there is always a list that needs done! I feel like I have disappointed them and yet, how can I do anymore than what I am doing? I feel burned out and exhausted! I know Lynda and I both need a lone time and quite time and time with no one around! I gave her a few hours a lone and took Jack with me on New Year's Day before I left to get Michael from the airport! I know it wasn't much, but I did all I could do!

I try so hard to help her and I feel like it is never enough! I know Lynda is running on the strength of Jesus Christ! I know she is worn out and in need of refreshment! I promised myself a week away in December-never happened! It seems like the time Lynda and me are together is based on taking care of Jack and work! I long to take a vacation with Lynda and just let us be ourselves without a care in the world! I am so grateful when I need prayer at night, she is more than willing to come and pray! I have never had that in my life prior to living here! I thank God for Lynda and I thank Lynda for giving of her time late at night when I have a prayer need!!!

I usually don't blog about home life as I am really sensitive about not wanting to say things that may hurt anyone! I usually write down my thoughts, but tonight I decided after reading, I would blog about some of the things on my heart and mind!

I have been three days sorting, packing up, organizing, and reorganizing my things in the closet and living room! Last semester, I had college books on the floor. I don't want to do this anymore as it looks trashy and unthoughtful! I have purchased one bookshelf and will get another to have a place to put my books when I am not using them! I need to keep organized!

I have been on this diet for almost four weeks. I have noticed changes and not liked most of them! I will be joining a club as I am not able to work out at home! It is hard, but when all are in need, we all need to work together to get through it together!

I love Lynda and Jack so much! There are times that my heart aches! Sounds crazy I know! I have a great deal of respect for both of them and don't want to ever hurt them! I know I have and never have intentionally done so! Please forgive me Lynda in letting you down!

Blessings dear readers!

The Man Flew In...--Part II

We had time a lone in the car, which proved to be not such a great way to try to talk. I couldn't hear him and kept saying, "Pardon me" or "Sorry, I can't hear you!!" Finally, we just listened to music and sang our hearts out to the Lord! We went out once to Chinese and that was interesting. Michael talked more to the Chinese workers than he did to me. It was great to see him interact with them as not too many people know the language nor speak fluent Chinese. Michael has been to China and speaks the language very well! I sat there and nodded for most of the time! Very interesting!! Most of the time a lone with Michael was not talking but worshipping the Lord and singing! I really enjoyed him sharing the music he uses in his devotions! I also had a few songs to share with him and we didn't know that the other wanted to share music with each other. I thought that was interesting!

Michael is very goal driven and career minded! He knows what he wants and needs to do to accomplish the goals he has set for himself! He is having some difficulties with the University he is trying to transfer from! I ask that you would please pray for clairity and truth to be shown in this situation. We haven't spoken on the phone since he left. We have emailed and texted everyday, just to check in with each other. It seems weird not talking everyday, but am so busy getting organized for my next semester of college that I don't miss the interaction until I sit down at night and then I pray for Michael a lot!!!

We clicked and know we want to build a friendship/relationship! We both desire to accomplish things in life and have set goals that we want to meet! Neither of us are set on reaching the final goal before a relationship, if that were to happen! We desire God to lead the dance above all! Not to let the flesh rise up and lead, but discipline the flesh and invite Jesus into the center of the friendship/relationship!

Michael has agreed to come back here one or two more times within the next three months before I will make plans to visit him on his turf! I am not able to get away very easily and told him that! I know that time will tell all things!

For the first time, I don't have anxiety that I have to know where he is or be with him all the time! I know that he is in the best hands of all-Daddy's! He is a special young man who is after the will of God! He is active in his church and loves God! It is so apparent when you spend time with him. I was so greatful that we spent a lot of the visit with other people. We could see each other interact with others.

Other than the welcoming meal that was so beautiful, thank you again dear Lynda!!!, the highlight of Michael's visit that we both enjoyed was the time on Friday night of last week. We stayed up with my dad, sister, and her finance playing Attack Uno!!! I could not believe that I won that game!!!!!!!!! I have only won one other game of Attack Uno! I couldn't believe it! Michael never got above negative 20. We play to whomever gets to 500. You can also go out backwards. That's what I usually do!!!

I ask for your prayers for this friendship/relationship! I am so glad for the support system I have in the Name of Jesus Christ!! I truely am blessed! Thank you for reading and praying!! Blessings dear ones!!!

The conclusion of the visit will be in the next blog!

The Man Flew In And Is Back Home!

His name is Michael, born in Guana, and same age as me! Wow!!! I thought for sure when he called and said things weren't good at all that he was not coming January 1. He said he was in an accident at the airport and had to take a later flight. He had to pay an additional fee to change flights due to missing the plane. It was not even his fault, but the man who hit him! I went to Madison to get him to find that the only "posted" flight coming in from Cincinatti was at 9:30 p.m. "YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KINDING!!!!!!!" is what I said out loud and had quite a few looks! Sorry!!! I had a laugh myself! I tryed finding someone who could tell me that there surely had to be an early fight coming in! The man at the counter said, "Oh mam, please wait as I check it out for you." I am pacing thinking what else? (Don't want to know.) He comes back out and said that there should be one at 5:30, but not sure! I say,"WHAT YOU GOT TO BE KINDING! YOU DON'T KONW!" Sometimes I am so reactive when under pressure!! I had tryed calling and texting Michael and never answered me. Yes, I got worried until they annouced the arrival of flight____ from Cinncinati has arrived. Then the longest wait or so it seemed for him to come down the escalator! Ten minutes late, Michael comes down, waving at me, all smiles!!!

Then we were off to get a home-cooked meal back here at home! I walked in and just about cryed all over again! The table was so beautiful and the house was so warm and peaceful with sax music playing! I couldn't help, but tear up when Lynda greeted us!

It was like the airport never existed!! All cares of the day were gone!! All pain was never felt!! Only love was all I felt when I came home! I thought this woman must have busted butt to get this done in the time I was gone to get Michael!! SHE DID!!!! I love you and thank you so much Lynda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will continue the visit on the next blog! Blessings!